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Assalamualaikum...

(Actually this was typed at 16w pregnant. Now I'm 21w. So need a little 'edit')

Alhamdulillah, pejam celik pejam celik, i'm 21w pregnant now...
Tak disangka2. Tak jugak terasa masa cepat berlalu. Memang terasa sangat lambat... But try to ignore it as much as i could... Dalam masa yang sama berdebar-debar nak menghampiri 23w. Huhuhu....

Of course semua ini kuasa Allah... Diberi rezeki at time we least expecting it. Alhamdulillah.
Yelah, nearly 4thn x pernah pregnant. Now after within 6-7months after d lost (bukan lost of mind ok :p) here i am again :)
Alhamdulillah...
Cuma pada umur dan tahun yang berbeza...

Baby Adilah plak dah pergi for more than 11months now... Nearly a year.
Tapi x penah plak mimpi baby datang jumpa or what so ever like others... Maybe sbb i pernah baca that "anak kecil yang meninggal dunia akan bergembira disyurga dan dilupakan seketika siapakah ibu bapanya until hari pembalasan. Then only they will remember, crying dan mencari kerana ingin bertemu dengan parentsnya". (ayat diolah mengikut kefahaman sendiri) and yakin with it kot?
Wallahualam~

I hope we will meet later on in future.
I know i'm not d best for you when we are together sbb mummy emotionally not so stable at that time plus keadaan keliling yang menyumbang as well...

For this round, i try to ignore all other things... Cuma yg penting mummy happy sendiri. Enjoy tido, ngadap tv, ngadap hp and so on. Makan when lapar. Menda org cakap x elok such as junk food pun makan je kalau dah nak makan...
Kalau rasa down, watch movies or tido je lah kot.Cuma lately i had hard time to sleep at nite. Siang lebih mudah :) So memang banyak tido siang. Ditambah dengan pelvic pain, so itulah...
Talk it out wont help as well... Coz from what i see before, my words mean nothing pun :)
(walaupun not in all condition).

Lain lagi cerita.... (Cerita lama actually)...
Actually i'm afraid of 'mengurut' dulu-dulu. Thats y dari awal kawen x penah g mengurut or what so ever walaupun after 2years pun belum pregnant.
Ramai yang suggest urut here n there, tapi i dont work hard for it.
I prefer g jumpa doc or so on kot. Tapi tak jugak pernah g jumpa and ask bout my condition :p
Ntahlah, i'm taking things easily kot...

Last time masa kerja (before kawen), pernah la jatuh terduduk sebab lantai basah dimop oleh new crew.
So, my staff gtau nearby her place ada makcik yg pandai mengurut. So, i give it a try la (1st time la ni). End up makcik tu mengurut sangat sakit. Huhuhu. Lebam2 kena urut lagi banyak dari lebam sebab terjatuh itu.
Memang makcik tu ada bgtau my rahim sejuk macam orang lepas beranak, susah nak pregnant kalau x urut and what so ever n suruh berurut at least 3x.
Tapi since masa tu pun belum kawen plus sakitnya urutannya, memang tak g dah la sampai ke sudah...

Lepas kawen still teringat what d makcik said... Tapi still x berusaha ke arah itu. Sebab takut kalau manatau kalau org lain urut pun sama sakit or lebih sakit lagi ker kan. Huhuhu...
Sendiri tak berusaha, tapi each time period pandai plak rasa kecewa. Apa punya manusialah i ni :p

Nak dijadikan cerita, few months after kawen, period plak problem.
Period panjang (more than 14days n i know its darah penyakit. Tapi tatau la apa sakitnya) plus dengan cramp kaki malam2.
Sudahlah masa tu baruuuu g honeymoon. Tengah malam menangis kaki cramp :p

Masa before kawen paling panjang period pun cuma 14days. Itu pun sekali jer. So x pikir apa-apa much sbb memang factnya max days of period is 14days kan. Anggap normal la sedangkan usually period 7-8days jer.
Ntahlah, i never want to share with others if ada sakit pelik2 camni kot. So diam-diam je lah.

Tapi tulah, takde g jumpa doc or what so ever... Just refer to my dad jer (he learn bout homeopathy but x ambik exam so cant practice it secara terbuka kat mesia ni. So just for family).
So, after a week or so, dah ok...
And being me, tak mengambil tahu pun apa masalahnya :p dah ok, dah la... Hehehe...
But actually my dad ada sms me what it is. Some kind of hormon imbalanced ke apa ntah. Then kena suruh makan more sayur hijau (but since i x makan sayur, so i ignore againlah).
My wrong to take things easily. Again n again :p
Masa zaman muda2 n still tinggal ngan parents, my dad always buy me zink supplement. Masa kat UMS rajin lagi claim kat panel. Dah tua2 ni dah tak reti nak beli sendiri. Nak salahkan siapakan? Terimalah nasibnya~

Guess what? D things happen again the next year... 2nd ni time pun just report to my dad. Makan ubat n all ok again.
Masa tu my dad gtau i'm 90% pregnant tapi persenyawaan itu x berjaya so period lah macam biasa (masa ni late period nearly 2weeks) tapi tatau la why with non stop period. Huhuhu...
Sedih gak la kot masa tu.

But on the 3rd year, only i went to hospital for check up. But before g menyerah kat sepital sempat la g urut kaki kat tabib cina. Ntah apa nama urutan dia. A friend la suggest coz kakak iparnya got pregnant after 2years married lepas urut sana.
Rezeki masing-masing la tu kan.
D uncle pun pelik n said its imposibble. But it's happening to me, for the third time plak tu. Nothing weird anymore i guess. Dah xde rasa takut pun sebab tak sakit.
Dia siap suh pakai pad herba plak. Pakai gak la kejap then baca org kata tak elok plak. Stoplah.
Still, didnt go for urut satu badan. Just kaki :p

2009. Lepas raya went for check up. Kena tu bulan puasa. I only manage to puasa for about 10days tanpa 'period' yang bukan period pun sebenarnya. Tapi i puasa je lepas 7th day sbb tahu itu bukanlah period. Harap diterima Allah.
But then i went for check up lepas abis enjoy2 celebrate raya. Hehehehe... Still x kelam kabut nak cepat2 check. This time didnt tell dad bout it. Kalau jawapannya sama like 'pregnancy yg x berjaya', i cant accept to hear that anymore... Macam my kebarangkalian to be pregnant is once a year la plak kan :P

So, g jumpa doc n she said she need to take sample of it. Means, have to go for D&C right away coz hasil scan macam ada ketulan, So maybe ketumbuhan or kandungan yang tidak menjadi. Huhu...
Since g pun dah petang, she ask to come back tomorrow morning after berpuasa for few hours n go for D&C.
So go for it d next day with mr hubby (luckily dia belum naik laut). Warded half day jer coz it's mr hubby's last day of his off day rasanya.
Masa tu x penah tanya risk after d D&C. Actually tatau pun what is D&C masa tu. Dah tua-tua ni baru tahu it's 'cuci rahim'. Huhuhu...
Since itu yg dicadangkan, malas nak pikir panjang n just go with it.

After a week, d result came out...
D doc called n ask to go to hosp ambek ubat coz it's a ketumbuhan. She describe it as very early stage if cancer. Huhuhu. Ngeri la jugak beb...
I call my close friend right away after d doc called... I need to hear her voice of comfort 1st before decide anything else...

So went to hospital d next day, ambek ubat n the doc said walaupun dah buang, things may repeat again n again anytime. Usually after a year. So no wonder la it happen each year. Tapi kenapa lepas kawen ek?
Wallahualam~
Ubatnya duphasthon je pun. Tujuan? Menstabilkan hormon & regulate period. Tapi awal2 period x stabil pun. Tapi just makan ikut arahan doc la. Makan 21days & stop for 7days. After a while baru stabil. Cant remember i have to it for how many months.
She said itu ubat hormon but wont harm if i got pregnant. So ikutkan je lah...

Alhamdulillah, genap setahun after that, i got pregnant. It is a miracle.Antara percaya dan tidak...
Tapi after 8weeks pregnant, start episode bleeding la plak. Again, taking duphasthon again but i dont think it help much coz i keep bleeding. On & off by time... Even after 20w pregnant.
Plus, part of uri dibawah. Itu pun penyebab bleeding kan.
End up, Nur Adilah Husna was born at 23w & dikatakan sebab infection. Maybe due to the bleeding kot. Wallahualam....
Dari awal jumpa doc, doc keep on saying it's normal and nothing to worry. Hurmmmm....
Dah itu ketentuan Allah untuknya kan. Tempatnya memang disyurga kan :)

And now, here i am pregnant again. Same time like before. Beza 2 hari jer :) ker i memang need raya mood to get pregnant? Hahahaha...
Since time raya kan happy2 n no pressure at all. Dok kat umah parents plak tu. Takyah wat keje apa. Just jalan raya merata, makan n tido jer :) Tolong masak pun not much :P

Few months before my 1st pregnancy, i went for mengurut jugak for d 2nd time in life :p
Sebab kebetulan makcik urut from Thai ada kat rumah and i pun ada d KL. Sepupu semua datang umah nak urut, mak pun join. I pun nak try lah. Macam best jer semua nak berurut dengan dia kan.
Alhamdulillah, xdelah sakit like before. Huhuhu. Best adalah :p
Memang most of my family berurut ngan dia lepas beranak sebab dia urut per whole body not like most of tukang urut nowdays main per hour.
Whole body dia urut takes 2.5h, memang puas hati. Tapi sempat urut sekali je sebab dah beli tiket nak balik Kemaman next morning. Kalau tak boleh gak urut 3hari kan :)

Cumanya, last time after delivery she cant come or dont want to come. Dia kata kalau gugur no need to urut. Plus booking dia for june n deliver februari, plus memang ada orang lain booking her at that time.
Tapi, sempat gak la urut sekali lepas abis pantang. Itupun sebab rahim x ditolak naik ke tempat asal masa berurut dalam pantang tu. Which makes my nifas too long. Almost 2months :(
Masa tu kan beranak awal, so x sempat plan this n that. Nak cari orang urut pun takes few days. Itu pun staff kat watson yang suggest. Tapi biasalah, bayaran per hour. Bertungku pun few minutes je. Dah sejam kelam kabut nak balik dah. Nasiblah~

Btw, lain lagi cerita, few months back, a friend of mine bleeding. Not sure berapa minggu masa 1st bleeding tu. Masa tu raya haji n bleeding masa d kampung. Maye sebab travelling kan.Banyak kali lah check up. At 32w bleeding banyak. Terus warded dalam 4hari. Dah siap kena inject to matangkan peparu baby. But alhamdulillah dah stop bleeding after few days bed rest.
Balik rumah still bleed a little tapi she wont go to check since she said pergerakan baby still active. She was asked to have bed rest until at least 36w before doc decide what to do with it.

Punca bleeding is uri kat bawah. At least one of it lah kan. Placenta previa kan namanya?
So i do some reading, pernah go thru D&C is one of the reason of uri begitu as well. But i never knew before pun.She done it as well sebab pernah keguguran.
Same with myself. My uri masa last pregnancy pun ada sebahagian kecil kat bawah.
Ntahlah... Semuanya memang telah ditentukan begitu kan. D&C or not, kalau mende nak jadi, jadi jugak kan...
Alhamdulillah, dia berjaya bertahan till 37w & deliver by c-section since uri masih dibawah. But then, dugaan masih bersamanya. Baby pulak tak boleh bernafas on her own so need bantuan machine & ubat2tan. At last, after a week, baby makin sehat & dah boleh bernafas & dah selamat sampai kampung halaman berpantang disana :)
(Later on will post baby pict)

Hurmmm... Sorrylah yet kalau pening plus bosan reading :p
Memang i seldom update now. Takde topik sangat. Tapi tulah, bila once typing, bercampur-campur cerita. Even at 1st wanna type this just for myself but when baca, macam ok je to share. So proceed je lah kan. Sesekali. Apa salahnya kan :)

Sampai sini dulu, Wassalam~