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Tuesday, 12 July 2011

12th is here again...

Nur Adilah Husna...

Its been 5months you left us... Im not really thinking bout it much actually but since yesterday i'm a little bit moody n so many things including bad things i feel like doing... I know its stupid. So, i'll try my best not to be stupido~

I'm sorry baby... I know you're at the most beautiful place n being take care by Nabi Ibrahim with other kids there...
Just that sometimes i'm a little bit unstable i guess... Nak melawat baby, grave baby jauh dr mummy... Plus how strong am i to be there? Apa pun insya Allah one day i'll be there, to visit you again k... Insya Allah.

So many 'flash back' bout the time baby's with mummy while we're here in kemaman... We're back in kemaman just for a week jer... Just a short period but so many things happen in that week kan? Which end up u was born here...
Since u was born n gone, it makes me see things and feel differently than before...
Seeing things cleary or blurry? Both i guess...
The clear one, alhamdulillah... As what we know, mati itu pasti, tapi hidup insya Allah... Segala2nya adalah pinjaman semata-mata.
The blur one, i dont know how to handle it. Some 'things' wont change on its own i guess... So, as long i think i can handle it, i'll be here... If d day come n i fell like it's too hard to handle anymore, i'll be 'there' plak la...

I do have the right and option to choose what i need to do rite?

Happy 5th month anniversary dear...
I know you're happy there for sure... Enjoy k.
Insya Allah we'll meet again later... I love you~

4 comments:

mELna said...

Tak lama lagi baby angel Aqeel pula yang 5 bulan. Memang banyak yang berubah kan Adlie selepas pemergian baby, tapi satu pun kita tak perlu sesali kerana baby berada di tempat terbaik sekarang ni ;)

Adlilatun Nur said...

aah... :)
takde apa nak disesalkan kan... kita pun tau diorang baby2 angel ni happy kat sana...
kita kat sini je lah, ada masa up, ada masa down kan...

ashra said...

moga tabah ye adlie...
kadang2 bila kita fikir balik,sebenarnya kita da ada rezki menanti di akhirat yang menjadi pemberat tuk timbangan kebaikan kan..

Adlilatun Nur said...

Tulah... Insya Allah. Kena cuba sentiasa menguatkan diri. Tapi mampu ke sentiasa? Hehehehe...
So up n down lah jadinya~